(Journal) Riding Dondon today.

Just got back from horse riding. Tired as heck.

But manage to blog, apparently.

I like to ride Dondon. No, I enjoy ride her very much.

Today she was nice, but I still couldn't get it right.

Maybe because of the fear, maybe I am tired. 

Well, to cut my story short, I have some kind of anxiety especially when I ride her.

I've fallen down from her countless time. 

Maybe I sound dramatic, but I honestly blame myself for not trusting her.

she is a good girl. Why can I trust her like I used before. heck

I need to change, gradually.

I love show jumping. I will always.

Fear, I should kill my own fear.

I'll show them.

June 10, 2015

childish?

Some people keep telling me to grow up.

Maybe I don't realize that I behave that way, but

how I can't change it? Do I have to force it and make myself little bit more?

so that I fit in the society? or fit my age? 

wth, I have no idea for it. maybe I don't have any idea now.

Maybe in a couple of years I will get the answer.

uhh I hate it if my mind goes this way.

I am 22 now. oh shit.

I'll do everything I want, careless a bit. 

having fun, yes, having fun.

note to myself though.

I'm holding on the things I said, no matter how hard I try.

Kind of Intro..

This is it. 

It's not like my diary, but short of I guess. 

I feel so dump.

However, feel it's kinda interesting to see how it goes.

I just want to make it simple.

Giving every little things in my life credits and thoughts.

(06.09.2015)