Seriously?! Why I hate a forced traveling.

Kenapaaaaaa kenapaaaa?!

I worked my ass off for 2 weeks to lose 3 kg. But because I traveled for 2 days, yes 2 daays, only 2 daays, I weight 2 kg heavier. I hateeeeee it!!!

My clean eating gone. I ate shit. I also ate borax. Can you believe that?! Shit shit shit.

But hey, I just can't blame myself like this. What I have to do is get back tk the track and do it again. Dont blame it other people either. Keep the positivity flowing to your soul. Streesing over something will bring you a bad mood all day.

Stop complaining and start doing. Thats how life role. 

Do what you want to do. Give it the best reason why. and dont complain. More pepple have more problems than you.

Now work harder. Train harder. And live better ya.

The first day.

So the first day.

Not that bad but not that good either.

My suitcase got locked. I did not, did not forget the password. But I couldn't open it. Daaang it. Shit.

Now, I have no idea how I can open this thing. Duhh.

I totally have a bad luck, super bad luck with something locked.

My motor cycle, my suitcase, what else.

So maybe, during the day, I'll try to unlock it. Faaaaaaq it has 3 digits. It means that I need to try till one thousand times. 

Aaaaaaaaarrrggghh..

Good start good start. 

I still have 59 days. 

Dafuuq

I laid. Dang it

It happened the last week before kkn. 

I lied. 

Dang it. 

It was the biggest one I've ever done.

My heart was racing. 

I told everyone I stayed at my social work friend's house. Well in fact, I stayed a night at dd's.

It was awesoome night. Bug still I lied to my family.

I wish my future children would not do this. Hahaha

So that night, me and dd went out to alun2 agaaaiiiin.

And we played that flying fairy Agaaain.

But this time we could fly it much higher. The seller help us though. He told us the secret too!! 

Childish still.

Later that night we decided to watch a horror movie. The insidious chapter 3.

Shiiit. Full of scream shit.

We screaam. I couldn't even sit still when that scary thing came in. 

We finished the movie at 5 in the morning I guess. 

And yes, we woke up at Late.

the child who survied

22

Still being childish. Yea heck I am.

Today I felt I haven't changed.

Still not grow wiser I think.

Still in my messy room.

Still in my unplanned life.

Oh heaven.

Anyway, this week has been fun.

Well, before I unintentionally fell asleep and stood granny up for a night out.

She left me so many messages and calls. Super baaadd. I'm so sorry.

Last night, I went out with dd again.

To alun-alun, again.

wooaa twice in a week. what the hell.

Bff to do list that night: hunting for a cute puppy in the park in the middle of the night.

we have seen this dog playing around with his dad quiet sometimes.

So, since we didn't have anything to do that night, we planned to find them in the park.

It was so random. it was like 11 pm.

two girls. two bored girls were trying to find and play with puppy in the middle of the night.

How random. But it was fun like always. Everything you do with your best friends will be the best memory. No regret.

So we ended up with nothing but an embarrassing story.

We couldn't find the pup, but we did meet dd junior classmate.

It was nice, but not when you were playing a something like flying fairy toys.

It was super stupid. 

We 20ish old still playing with stupid toys and bubbles too!!

O gosh. I didn't care if anyone who I didn't know watching us while we were playing. 

But, it was so awkward when we did meet someone we know, but not that close.

And the best part is when dd tried to catch a random flying fairy toy.

and guess who had it? It was dd junior classmate brother's flaying fairy.

Shit I know. Double awkward!!

And yep, we also ate mcd ff afterwards. 

Daaang it!!

good day

Hi there!
Just some random updates.
Last night, me and dd went to do some random things.
Went to the far away angkringan in the mountain hill. and we were full. not hungry at all.
It was stupid, but fun though.
Well, actually we had a hard time to find a new place, especially when you live around the same place for quiet long time.
Seriously. We didn't even know where to go. but we did it anyway.
We thought that we will not see each other for like two months since we have to do that stupid kkn.
Oh well.. let's see if that thing will still happen in the future.

Back to last night randomness.
afterwards, we went to alun-alun, again.
We rode a bike, stupid bike.
and dd couldn't even drive it. But we laughed hard.
My tummy hurt.
We had a blast.
note, if you go there again remember to bring lots of coins.
so many street musicians. we joked about that a lot.

Well spent night before that kkn shit happens.

What you are is what you eat.

Daaaaaaaaaigh..

I should have changed now.

I had started this before.

Eating healthy again. 

I hate feeling this way. 

But, shit. I couldn't start it.

I know I am miserable. Why.

I was so happy before. I could manage my diet.

I could eat healthily. But now, oh shit.

one day became one week. 

one week became one month.

Faaack!

I need to change. Please change yourself!

yes, a note to myself again.

Hey there me, maybe 5 years older than when I wrote this.

Will I change? Will I achieve the healthy lifestyle that I always wanted.

too bad just too bad.

Hi there,
today was not so fortunate for me.
pretty much.
I accidentally liked and followed someone in Insta who I didn't really close with.
We are not close at all. Even Rischa dislike her.
It was embarrassing.
I was too sleepy to think right.
Oh gosh. I even asked Rischa to help me reduce my embarrassment. Shit.
It's not a big deal. but still..

The next thing that really pissed me off.
One of my motor cycles tire got flat. Shit.
I was just about to meet Rischa and Pinky to do my freaking essay.
Shit.Shit.Shit.

But thankfully, at the end of the day, I got surprise from Eyang Sri.
A horse key chain. Super cute haha
Thankfully, something that really made me giggles.

(Journal) Riding Dondon today.

Just got back from horse riding. Tired as heck.

But manage to blog, apparently.

I like to ride Dondon. No, I enjoy ride her very much.

Today she was nice, but I still couldn't get it right.

Maybe because of the fear, maybe I am tired. 

Well, to cut my story short, I have some kind of anxiety especially when I ride her.

I've fallen down from her countless time. 

Maybe I sound dramatic, but I honestly blame myself for not trusting her.

she is a good girl. Why can I trust her like I used before. heck

I need to change, gradually.

I love show jumping. I will always.

Fear, I should kill my own fear.

I'll show them.

June 10, 2015

childish?

Some people keep telling me to grow up.

Maybe I don't realize that I behave that way, but

how I can't change it? Do I have to force it and make myself little bit more?

so that I fit in the society? or fit my age? 

wth, I have no idea for it. maybe I don't have any idea now.

Maybe in a couple of years I will get the answer.

uhh I hate it if my mind goes this way.

I am 22 now. oh shit.

I'll do everything I want, careless a bit. 

having fun, yes, having fun.

note to myself though.

I'm holding on the things I said, no matter how hard I try.

Kind of Intro..

This is it. 

It's not like my diary, but short of I guess. 

I feel so dump.

However, feel it's kinda interesting to see how it goes.

I just want to make it simple.

Giving every little things in my life credits and thoughts.

(06.09.2015)